"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within."

~Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

"Words mean more than what is set down on paper. It takes the human voice to infuse them with deeper meaning."

~ Maya Angelou


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*EDIT! ^-^

so October is done with...holy crap, that went fast! but a lot has happened this month...where to begin?

~ Sickness....somehow I managed to get sick...twice!...but thankfully it wasnt too serious...still recovering right now but I'm a lot better than what I was!

~ Trust....learned the hard way who to trust...to think you know someone, to think you could tell them everything, to think you could trust them 100%...turns out you truely cant...i hate this feeling so much, i know if i did one thing different....everything could be different...too bad time machines haven't been invented yet, cause that would help my problem...like most peoples lol

~ Cosplay...because of certain incidents, financial, and overall time, I will probably not do anything with cosplay anymore...I truely do wish that i could but i can not...maybe in the future but for now...cosplay is done with...

~ Halloween! (happier topic!!) so this year I got talked into buying my costume with a friend of mine...now its completely opposite of what i would have normally done but sometimes its good to change it up...as quoted by my friend Ashley...we were "sexy fairies"... -_- yeah....it was interesting to say the least...lol but it was a ton of fun otherwise!

~ Cleaning Out Gallery and New Uploads....i'll be cleaning through my gallery and getting rid of some stuff...but I promise to have new uploads coming asap!!!

Sorry for the major delay of updates....the last month has been very..eventful to say the least

~ Just got over the stomach flu I had this week (since Monday night)....certain foods are still off limits...right now I'm living off of toast and eggs...yum

~ One of the three plays/musicals i'm in this year (yes i'm crazy) has opening night next week...little nervous about singing but i'm more worried about the band we have...most of the cast is annoyed by the fact at how long they are taking to understand what's going on...plus one of the guys in the group is rude (in my opinion)...he will literally interupt someone during a scene to ask about a part that we've already done!!! ugh...just a tad frustating isn't it.....

~ Slowly but surely...I'm regaining some friends back...but they know that I don't trust them 100%...probably won't ever again, too much has happened....but we shall see what the future holds

~ Found out today that I need to help with the second of the three plays/musicals backgrounds...I hated doing the backgrounds last year...not sure why they just dont reuse the ones we did last year...but i'm guessing since there are a couple new scenes that they want new backgrounds...so not looking forward to doing that...again...

~ Found out a couple of days ago that a few students from my school were in a car accident, not far from where I live...thankfully no body was hurt...i really dont know how the school would have reacted if someone got hurt really bad...or worse...

...a lot more stuff has happened...but the rest is not important to share here...

hopefully i'm doing the right things...but lately, i feel like i have no idea what is wrong and right....maybe this stomach flu has gone to my head or something...idk..

Found from a friend on Facebook

Twenty-one questions all about theatre. Answer them then tag all of your theatre friends. Once you're tagged, do it then pass it along!

1) What was the first play you ever did? What role or job?
Aesop's Fables...played a couple different small parts or was in large group parts (not really sure what i did though...it was a long time ago)

2) What was your most recent show? What job/role?
Most recent completed show- "My Gun is Pink/Murder at the Ballet"; had multiple character roles
Most recent show(s) I’m in now- “Annie Warbucks”, “Stand by Your Man the Tammy Wynette Story”, and “A Christmas Carol”

3) What was your favorite show/role?
“My Gun is Pink/Murder at the Ballet”

4) What was your most challenging show/role?
~ Singing country for “Tammy Wynette”
~ learning to waltz for “After the Happily Ever After”
~ being a very mean person/b***h in “Annie Warbucks”

5) What is the most bizarre show or role you've ever done?
The Grand Duke in “After the Happily Ever After”

6) Has anyone ever written a show for you?
No

7) Have you ever quit a show to accept a better one?
No

8) Have you ever completely blown character on stage?
No

9) What show(s) are you just dying to do?
“The Three Rings”

10) Have you ever done one of your "dream" shows?
I will be this spring!

11) Who was your favorite director?
Kerry!

12) Who was your least favorite director?
Don’t have one…only worked with two people and I liked them both

13) What is the most surprising role you have ever been offered?
To be Young Tammy Wynette

14) Have you ever injured yourself onstage or offstage?
Yes…lenty of times…but mostly just small injuries

15) What show(s) have you done multiple times?
“After the Happily Ever After” and “Ghost Elizabeth”

16) Have you ever had an onstage kiss?
Technically I should be in Tammy Wynette but I’m not going to

17) What was your scariest moment in a show?
The first time I did “The Ghost Elizabeth”, an extra ghost (who turned out to be Kerry, the director) came out and no one knew what was going on except for 2 people. A few of us really thought a ghost was there. lolz

18) What is your best show memory?
Seeing ~helfire234 come to “My Gun is Pink/Murder at the Ballet” and everyone in the cast wanted to see what he looked like, so everyone took turns peaking out a set of double doors to find ~helfire234. One of my cast mates even decided to climb a latter to look over the wall to find ~helfire234! That whole night I wanted to kill every single one of my cast mates

19) What is your worst show memory?
Seeing an entire seen of “Any Number Can Die” go completely wrong…somehow we recovered but it was bad…

20) What is your saddest show memory?
Performing the last show with the entire cast from every community show I did…never know if it will be the last time I see some of the cast or not

21) Do you have any theatrical superstitions?
Two words: Fairy Story

Have any of you made a mistake that you're not proud of? I know I can share plenty:
~ Hanging out with the wrong people, instead of my true friends
~ Not being there for some of my friends (at different points in time)
~ Not being able to make peace with my ex til almost a year after we broke up
~ ect, ect, ect

So share your thoughts, vent them out. Don't keep them bottled up. Everyone makes mistakes at least once in their lifetime. No one has had the perfect life.

I know right now that at least three of my friends are hurting right now (all for different reasons) and its all for different things; i won't explain the details but I want them all to know one thing,

Just because you've made a mistake, no matter how big or small it may be, you need to move on.

I know this sounds harsh but its the truth. You can't dwell in the past about your mistake. It may suck now but the sooner you can put it behind you, the sooner the pain in your heart (or wherever it may be) will go away.

Just my little blurb for today. Make sure you share your mistake. BUT Don't go into detail...please, its for the best for you all

♥ Love you all ♥
Nikki

today i was talking to my "brother"... he's not my real brother but he's the closest friend that I have that I call my brother...

anyway

he is one of a few people i go to for ranting, asking questions, ect. Well today wasn't that much different but overall it really opened my mind up...confusing? indeed...i'll explain

i have always be more of a tomboyish girl...never liked to wear skirts or dresses (i felt more comfortable in suits! XD)...makeup was something that I never understood (and barely do today)...and I never really saw a point to spend so much extra time on just an apperance

i wasn't exactly popular in school...i was usually the one who was picked on (please...no smypathy here)...so I never saw a point to be girly person...it was easier for me to wear jeans and baggy shirts/hoodies...i never had thought positive about my body because I wasn't a small girl like the rest of my class...i wasn't extremely large but enough where kids (mostly boys) would make fun of me for my weight...yeah, not exactly the best self esteem booster..

once i got to high school, i really didn't care too much about looking nice...i did attempt to wear more fitted things but it just never turned out right...it was hard my first year...getting judged by many people and them being open about it wasn't the greatest...

after freshman year, i stopped caring...i didn't care what anyone said, i wore what i wore and if someone didn't liked it...oh well...too bad for them...i was finally happy with myself but inside i still wish that i could get away from the baggy clothes and be the true me...

yes, a long story but there is a point...lol

today my "brother" brought up a point how I should really stop hiding under my baggy clothes..he said how he knows that theres more to me under the hoodie & baggy jeans and that an attractive person lies within me...needless to say, i was pleasantly surprised when he said this....i have never thought of myself as attractive or pretty or beautiful...

it was nice to hear this from my "brother" because he really started to make the wheels turn in my head...he said that I should try to be a little more girly in small steps...start to wear more fited jeans and shirts, try getting comfortable with skirts/dresses (mostly shorter dresses..not the long ones that cover all of yours legs), and try to wear a little makeup..he said that a little goes a long way

everything my "brother" says I take to heart...he has known me for 2+ years and knows about as much as some of my closest friends that I've known my whole life...so I will try to be more feminie/girly...

even though its totally out of my comfort zone...i still want to do it...it will be hard but i'll try my best..

i know....kinda random but this was in my mind...and i just wanted to write it out...